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Here I am at a cross roads again and I have no choice but to move on. I am tattered, betrayed, hurt and worn out. The world has turned it's back on me and everyone has walked out of my life. But this, I am used to.

I'm running out of people to count on. And though quantity is not what really matters, it helps when you eliminate yourself as one of those people. Sometimes you need just a little help, a little insight. Maybe some comfort. When you're this alone, it's hard not to lose your mind. I'm not about to let that happen, however. I've been lost like that before, and I'm surprised I made it out.

My heart strings are tied in knots. I care, I feel, I miss, I don't. I'm nowhere near happy, but I am not sad. You could say I'm disappointed in everyone that ever meant something to me. These people that once made me strong, now only make me weak.

So I make a choice. I go this way, and I'm stranded. Nothing changes or revolves into something new. I'm stuck. But that way, there's a change. New people, new feelings, new trust. I wish I had someone to direct me. Something, maybe. Anything.

I guess, like everyone has done to me, I just have to walk away and see where I lead myself.